ENTRY 9

10/27/19

Another very very nice day today. We went to pike place and got lots of things.

• A record for me.
• A robot toy for Joe.
• TThe sims 3 on pc for me.
• Salmon for the family which I ended up cooking.
• Flowers for mom that were pink and looked nice.

For 2 days now I have felt really really good. I already knew this but staying in really fucks with me mentally. I really need to prioritze getting out more for my own sanity. Staying in is easy, and comfortable, but ultimately it's to my detriment even if it's what I want to do. I act very self-destructivley sometimes and I'm not sure why. I'm just fucked and it makes me hate myself even more then I already do. But hey. 2 days in a row without having violent thoughts is a very good thing. Hopefully if I get out as much as possible I can end up making that streak last even longer.

I danced till I sweat while cooking dinner. It was nice.

That's all I have tonight.